02.03.22

I feel like I’ve been a little selfish over the last year with wanting to keep my mom all to myself. I haven’t shared updates or posted pictures because they seem too special to share with anyone else and I want to keep them locked up and safe. But recently I have been so encouraged by the incredible support I have received from so many people and I’ve realized that this journey is way too hard to walk by myself. I’ve also been reminded that so many of you love my mom too and it’s not fair of me to not let you love her to the end.

So here we go ..

Mom isn’t doing great. She is fighting with every ounce of her strength but I can tell that she is getting tired. In November she stopped with chemotherapy treatments because they were no longer effective. During that time they recommended her to take part in stage 1 clinical trials. She wanted to proceed with this because even if it didn’t work for her, she wanted to be able to help someone else suffering with this in the future.

Unfortunately this last week has been really hard for mom. Her energy levels are extremely low, she has a hard time eating and drinking, she struggles a lot with pain, and is very weak. I’ve been blessed to get to be with her for much of the week and it has been such a privilege to get to take care of her. She has cared for me so well throughout my life and I can’t imagine being anywhere else than by her side right now.

Things are hard right now and I feel like every day my heart breaks a little more, but mom reminded me again last week that God is sovereign and I am clinging to that truth each and every day.